Big Body, Small Bikini

“This is a big body Benz, please don’t crash.”

It’s like the people who saw me in my swimsuits couldn’t handle what I was giving. Is that my problem?

Absolutely not.

My first two piece swimsuit was from Rue107—a strapless top with high waisted bottoms. It covered everything God gave me, but at the time, it was a huge step from my beloved one piece and tankinis. lmao

As I got older, I started loving my body more. And we thank God for it! The things I once wanted to hide became the things I loved most. It wasn’t until around 2021 (correct me if I’m wrong lol) that I bought my first string bikini. To this day, it’s still one of my favorites.

I even packed it for vacation, along with a few other two pieces, and let’s just say… people stared. Some were from the girls who were clearly there for a dance competition, others came from wandering eyes and a few stank faces lol The reason why I didn’t care what they thought, this and everything I wear is for me. I will show off because its my birthright. You will see me jiggle. You will see embracing every curve. Will my swimsuit eventually go under my belly? Yes and it will probably stay there. And if somebody happens to admire, then they have great taste.

I mixed and matched pieces for the first swimsuit I wore, but I already knew whatever came next was going to be even skimpier. I’ve been adding more brown to my closet and to be honest, I’m not mad at it. Brown on brown will always be good over here.

I try not to be overly nostalgic, but I can’t help it sometimes.

I became the woman I know my younger self would’ve looked up to.

I know what I like, and I wear what I want. There’s not much out there that can make me hide anymore.

I laid on the beach. Played in the ocean. I made drinks. I truly enjoyed myself. I just wish I didn’t have to squeeze all my beach and pool side time into one day. Make up time is bound to happen. Multiple days of getting 4 shades darker, sipping on frozen margs, espresso martinis, and snacking on the crinkliest fries are coming.

Since we’re in the THICC of summer, I think it’s now the perfect time for you to pull out that swimsuit you’ve been wanting to wear. Wear the cover-up… or don’t. One piece, two piece, high waisted or not.

It’s hot outside, so you might as well show the world why you’re hotter.

Wear your sunscreen, and stay hydrated.

See you in the next one…

Maybe in that skimpy bikini.

Xoxo, Jonice 💋